I was just fooling myself before..

It seems it is impossible for me to remain Jayna's friend w/out me falling for her..

Im already falling for her.. and ive only talked to her for an hour total this mornings chat.. and the one we just had..

I was holding my defences up very well.. but she just walked right through them.. she was able to make me start to cry..

I kept calling her sis.. I didnt even realize i was doing it.. but she told me to please stop.. that it was getting annoying..

then she said she misses the old me.. oh man.. I cant even think about that.. its making me tear up right now just thinking about it..

well im gonna go do a bit of studying.. then go to sleep.. this isnt healthy for me.. 'night you guys.