A VERY GOOD DAY

Yup, today was good. I don't really remember much of the rest of the day, but the lunch hour I spent with Alison was WONDERFUL. Every day I realize just how much she truely means to me, and just how much she makes me happy. I love to be able to please her in anyway. It makes me feel like I have a purpose in life. I finally am able to spoil someone. And treat them as they deserve to be treated. Alison gives me the ability to fulfill a desire I have had all my life. To be able to make someone truly happy. I have always felt like a part of me was missing. Lately  I feel whole, I have been able to utilize every fiber of my mind, body, heart, and soul in the last 7 months. I have used each of them at times, for one individual, but NEVER have I been able to do it like I do for Alison. Usually I just make a person happy for a day. But Alison I can make happy for a few days, or perhaps Much longer, but we both long to have each other forever. To a point that we never have to let go. We both love each other VERY MUCH.

I LOVE MY WOMAN!
I LOVE MY WOMAN!
I LOVE MY WOMAN!!

Plans for the Future.

Alison and I were talking again today, around 9:45PM, and we both learned something. We realized that once we both attain what seems to be the hardest thing for both of us to get, a car (for me), and an apartment (for her), we will be able to get married with nothing else in our way. That was not what we learned though. What we learned was that between the two of us, we have just about everything we will need for an apartment together. I have the furniture for both Bedroom and Living Room, and she has all the pots, pans, dishes, and silverware. She also has the TV for our bedroom. The PS2 will go in the Living room (along with the rest of my video game consoles.) and her XBOX will go in our bedroom. This will give us ability to play video games in either room, and/or watch DVDs in either room. Though first we need to buy the DVD playback kit for the XBOX, I think I will pick up the Advanced XBOX cables at work, since I think I have one on clearance for only $10. Just in case we ever decide to put it in the living room, with the surround sound. I want to go to best buy, with my warranty info, and get a new PS2, because mine is getting old, and its wearing out fast (motor is starting to get VERY loud). My Warranty is good for about 6 months from now.

When J.R. and I talk, he always tells me that its amazing how Alison and I seem to have our lives completely planned out right now. I tell him most of it isn't planned, its just either falling into place (such as how me and her ended up with exactly what the other doesn't have for an apartment.) or we really have to strive at other things (such as my family.)

A breakthrough!

Today I went with Alison and her Mom cause Alison and I needed some time together. We left about 11:30, and I arrived back home around 1PM, The surprising thing, when I got home, Both mom and sis were laying on the couch, and they just asked who I went to lunch with. They knew I wasnt going to go to lunch alone. When I told them I went with Alison, they just smiled, and got a laugh on their faces. They didnt seem upset or anything. I think they have realized that I love Alison, and nothing they will ever say will prevent me from loving her. So they seem to be trying to be civil now. It feels ALOT better.

Welp, time for me to buy a new monitor.

Grandma just walked into the doorway, not more than a foot away from the computer with a HEAVY DUTY magnet. The screen is completely screwed up, and it doesnt have a degause option.

I am haveing a rough day so far. I woke up late, not wanting to get up, because I had a feeling its going to be a REALLY bad day. I finaly woke up and took my shower, when i got out of my shower, there was a voicemail on my phone from Alison. She was having a bad day and needed to talk to someone, I wasnt there, I felt soooo Bad about that. So I started to worry, my stomache began to churn, I litterally worried myself sick about her. I went to the meeting, left halfway through, because I had to go see alison, and talk to her.

It pains me whenever I see her upset, she refuses to cry infront of me. But I know when shes about to, or when she is holding it back. I will be thinking of her all day. I REALLY miss her, and I just wish I could call off work sick, and spend the rest of the day with her. I am not going to like being this far away from her, when shes this down.

Sorry for not posting in a while...

Much has been going on lately. I have much to do in the next few months. Get a car, get a better job, propose (this time with the ring in hand), get married. I love my wife dearly. Even though we are not formally married, we are already married in our hearts and minds. We just need to let everyone else know how much we truely love each other.

These next few months are going to be very exciting. But at the same time they are going to be trying on both me and Alison because of how much we both anticipate them.