Yesterday @ work

Well w/in the first few min of me getting to work, Jonna comes upto me and says "Anthony, Did you forget to do something yesterday?" then she walked over to an L-Cart which was full of DVDs. I cant help the fact that the day before they made a page and sent customers back to Sporting Goods, Electronics, and Lawn and Gardens to check out, cause the Lines were just THAT FRIGGIN LONG!

Then I have Todd on my case saying "WHAT HAPPEND LAST NIGHT!?!?!?!?!?!?! I Walked into the department and the calculators and Phone Accessories look like a bomb went off in here!" I felt like saying "SORRY MASTER TODD, I'LL MAGICLY STOP TIME, ZONE THE ENTIRE DEPARTMENT! AND EVEN STAY HERE OFF THE CLOCK TO MAKE SURE NO TEENAGERS COME BACK AND TRASH THE DEPARTMENT!" I was so irritated at the time I couldnt beleive it. I am sick and tired of him pushing us around, ALL of us, He thinks he has SENIORITY, which noone in Wal-Mart has Seniority, Unless you are in a higher position, AKA management.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I just need to yell, and scream right now.

Later things got a lil better, 8:45PM Me and Jon got recruited to be Unloaders, we were unloaders till 10PM I kinda liked it back there.. It was a bit fast paced for me, but I wouldnt mind doing it again if they need me.

Well I get home, and I cant wait to get online to tell Heidi about the 2 new cds I got, but.. MY SISTER DECIDES SHE WANTS THE COMPUTER! and somehow shes more important than me. She had it from 11:30 till Who knows when after she had it for over an hour, and told me, "I dont think your gonna see the computer at all tonight" I decided screw it, and I went to bed. This is the 3rd night in a row shes done this to me, I really wanted to chat w/ Alison, Trish, Heidi, and maybe even Jayna. I just was feeling like I needed to talk to someone. Forget family that wont happen, as they are too busy w/ there own lives. My mom I would love to chat w/, and I think she would love to chat w/ me. But some things I need to talk about, I just dont know how to talk to her about.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I really need more friends, that I can talk to about everything. A friend I can confide in. I have 3 of em right now (I think) but none are really local right now. I can only talk to them online. I am getting to a point where I just dont know how to talk to ppl in person. Cause im afraid I might cry, or break out in tears. And I dont want anyone to have to deal w/ me when Im crying unless its through a computer screen where I can hide my true feelings.

I know several ppl would be willing to to let me confide in them. and I wouldnt mind doing so. I just have a hard time trusting myself, that I wont end up causing hurt emotions. or end up telling them something I dont want them to worry about etc. I just really hate myself when I am all emotional. I am literally more emotional than most of the females I know. I swear! I think I was supposed to be female or something. Cause I have major moodswings, and get very emotional ALOT!

I woke up a lil while ago, and I must go back to bed.

But I had a dream I was at work, (It was still yesterday) and Alison came in, she kinda walked through furniature, but she kinda hid, then she smiled. Then I started blushing, and smiling back. It was during the time I was absolutly enraged. my first 2-3 hours at work. But when she came by she made me smile. I actually thought somehow I traveled back intime and was reliving the day, really weird feeling, then she showed up and I felt so good. And this was in my dream, yet it felt so real. All we did was our normal "Hi"s and small chat, then a lil teasing each other for a lil while afterwards. and then we parted as she had to go. Now the weird part, is that I know shes gonna be reading this lol.

Dont get me wrong Alison, You know how I feel about you. Your a great friend, and I love chatting w/ you. I just hope to be able to remain a good friend to you as much as you have been for me.

Well Goodnight everyone, Im off to get a few more hours sleep, then to go to my Sunday Meeting, then to enjoy my day off, and go to softball later w/ alot of my friends. I may be on a lil from 12-3 or so, not sure tho.